Frivolity and Unrequited Love

It's late, and I should be sleeping, but it's summertime and I'm allowing myself a few nights of frivolity where I stay up late and write my little heart out. I found this quote today, which really reminds me of ... well ... me.

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily - that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."

-Natalie Anne Erlanson

See, what I've learned about myself is that I am quick to trust and love other people. I put so much into the relationships that I have because I value people so much, but I often feel that I put a lot into something and then never see any return there, and I know that many people experience this.

However, J.M. Barrie said it much better than I can:
Let no one who loves be called unhappy. Even love unreturned has its rainbow.

I often feel very insufficient; I can never be "good enough" for some people. I know this is a lie, but I feel as though there's some kind of wall that I hit and there's just nothing that can break it down. I just have a hard time with surface-level friendships that will never go anywhere.

It's okay if I don't make any sense at 2:37 am. Good night!